Do you know that feeling, the way you feel after walking into a sandstorm? You're lost in a cocoon that moves and changes around you. You're the only reference you have as to which direction you're going. Soon after, you start thinking that you may have walked in a circle. The dividing line between me and the life I lead before is now thicker, like a brooding warning crossed on the ceiling.

I don't know if that's a bad thing, actually. It steers me to places I haven't been in a long time. Must find a goal, a sense of direction to my life. I could use some guidance, but I know there's no one out there to pull me out, pat me on the back and telling me I'm safe. If you want something done right, you've got to do it yourself. And there's nothing wrong with that.

So, that's what I'm doing. Slow and steady, but I'm doing something. I'm making up my mind, no more fortunes fool. I don't need to prove anything to you anymore. This is all about me. And there's light so bright and warm at this end of the tunnel, and it's a one way street. It feels like I'm walking this way with broken feet, but at least I'm still walking. There's a beautiful world behind this vast, dark tunnel. And I'm going there, right now.

I'll let you know when I get there.

Hey guys, just wanted to let you know that I'm still alive.....
More to come.. much more to experience..

stay tuned - take care
.jey

.. it was my birthday on Saturday. 25 years behind me. 25 good years over all. and i'm sure 25 more good years to go...

and yes.. you can send me flowers..

take care, have fun and ttys hopefully

ps: and as soon as creatyves helps me how to work with photoshop better there's more stuff to come...

cheers
.jey

Time will tell.. Clearing my mind. A lot of new exciting situations to come. ..... hopefully. stay tuned....

Life goes on. My mind tells me things... things to write. It's a weird stage of mind. between knowing and beeing glad that life is going on, and pure hell. It sounds so negative.. it's not, really. So many ideas and opportunities to come, so many tears. Up and down and up and down and trying to suceed and falling even deeper. trying to go back in time and maybe beeing able to change something. just a short second. and it could change the world...

what is love?! does it apply to you?! do you know more?! what are the key features of love?! a good friend of mine told me that if you look around and try to analyze your friends, your family, your guys and girls around you, so many tears are offered in sacrifice just because we have the desire to love each other.

love is one purpose of life... of my life. and I won't put down my sword and fight until my mind will collapse. that's who I am and who I want to be.

thrive for perfection - and don't judge me on that

*good, is the worst enemy of the best*

either you understand that concept or you don't.

I love you all. have fun, take care and be nice to each other. life is cruel enough. try to make the best for yourself, but never forget the friends, partners and family who stand right next to you.........